I miss me!

Someone said to me one day that they missed me. My response was that I missed me too. I haven't been me in a long time. It's funny to say that because I don't really know if I ever knew who I was. I miss having fun. I miss having something to believe in. I miss having faith in people. It feels like that is gone.

I used to have fun and play. Even being an adult, I could play. I can't do that anymore. There are too many expectations that don't include playing. I miss the play. I think that's why I love Disney so much. It reminds me of when I could play. I go there and I can play again.

I used to believe in a lot of things. Now I believe in much of nothing. Nothing is stays the way it is or what it is supposed to be. I wait each day to see what will shift and change. It's hard to believe when you don't know what is or will be.

I used to take people for what I could see. I have found that there are many good actors in the world. People who present themselves, but aren't anything what they appear. Trust is a vary rare commodity.

I do miss me, but more importantly I miss what I have lost.